Making each day count

What do successful people do with their lives, their time on earth? For some people, it is easy for them to achieve the things that they achieve. God blesses them or is in partnership with them in their dreams. I have been unemployed for so long, I am sometimes asking myself where have all the years gone? It is not my own doing that I am unemployed now, well maybe partly because I declined 4 job offers. But those were honest mistakes, honest experiences which I am proud of to be my decisions and I have never stopped finding opportunities for me to work. It is just unfortunate that people are hard to believe, to trust in a crummy resume that I have that only states 2 or so years of experience in my total of 15 years of being a graduate from college. What do you do if one day totally depend on you for some money? I realize I am not able to reach out to other people or enrich myself with relationships with people I am supposed to meet in my life because basically they are at work and me not. I just stay at home and budget the small amount that my mom gives to me to budget over a week's stretch or a month's stretch of going out to apply primarily for a job rather than just strolling around the city without any appointment to go to. It is a pretty hard life because at my age i wanted to meet people so that I could start a family later and the time I felt is now and not later. That's why I gotta make money. I guess I will not write if my dreams don't push through yet for what will I write about. I sometimes take into consideration the actions pertaining to my dreams and actually doing it and later on ponder on it when it progresses. What if you call on God and he doesn't answer back, He doesn't give you the blessings. I believe that can happen, as it happened to me for 10 or 12 years now. I know my blessings come in the form of food, clothing, shelter, magazines, books, internet, cable, and things I am able to do like study, write, go to church, have good family support and me supporting them likewise all the more. So why am I complaining? it's just that sometimes when you don't have money, you do not meet the people you are supposed to meet and how are you gonna do that? How are you gonna make your day count? How are you not gonna waste time or a day staying at home, doing nothing? It is a vicious, terrible, mind-numbing cycle and I just wish it was over. It is easy to say things such as go on and never surrender when you have what you want but when it's tough then your faith is in question? How do you make your day count when you are penniless. Pray! That's the answer. Here are my ideas so far for that problem. Go out everyday and go to mass with P150 in your pocket, do not eat anymore, just buy cheap food and drink and go home, at least you hear the word of God and you receive Communion. That's a whopping P600 a week except Wednesdays when you go to mass with your mom in Baclaran. Go to mass on Sundays! Buy newspapers everyday so you've got the feeling that you are connected with the world and you are updated, the spreadsheets which cost I think P15-18 and the tabloid P10 for my mom. Save money to buy a book. Or go out selling with an estimated P6000 for allowance but you have to have sandwiches like tuna or corned beef or hotdog or tocino, two sandwiches for baon and drink so that all you have to shell out is transpo fees estimated at P100 or a little bit more. Try to find some accounting clients. Write, offer your writing like scripts, books, children's books and romance books. Even writing jobs the ones that I have applied to, but they are unsure yet. All in all, go out everyday and find the people that you want to share your life with for the rest of your life here on earth.