To be busy with

I was wondering what people do nowadays. I guess they still do the same stuff like going out on movies, dining out, going to malls and sales and working. Add to that surfing the net and joining social networking sites and getting their news tidbits from the net. Some people are in school. Some people are working. Some have their families. Others busy themselves with family affairs. Some go out with friends. It just goes on. To be out right now in gimmicks you gotta have at least a thousand bucks to splurge. Where will you get that if you don't have work. Sometimes you go out just to be out and to enjoy the world and that has a cost too. The truth is you can't do much if you don't have money. I was sometimes wondering how people could afford things. Why people go to malls? Why people sometimes eat at Sbarros and others eat at McDonald's. How they afford to shop? Where do people get their money. I sometimes think that those who have less high standard in their education have something more than me. The only thing that's happening right now I think are the call centers, but how about the graduates of other courses or those who aren't fluent enough to be call center agents? How will they get jobs? Sometimes you will get jobs but you find it lacking in interest and you wonder if you really are using your talents enough just to do a job. Is it anymore enriching? I am searching and sometimes I don't know where to search. I hope I find my answers. I believe that every problem has a solution. Before, I thought going back to school would give me the job that I wanted. Unluckily, that hasn't happened. What makes you hirable? Where can you get the job that you love? There are so many people in the world today and you're just hoping to find your niche. One thing I have discovered, I love writing that's why I am doing this blog. It makes me feel alive. But there's something missing. I have to find a way to make money out of writing. In other avenues. So that I can keep up. So that I can say that I have a job. And so that I can bring something home.

The difficulty of not having something to do

The opportunities in this country I think are not enough. Maybe, I am trying at the wrong channel. I only apply for jobs, maybe I am not looking for a career. I was wondering how others made it. How others became actors or athletes or artists or writers. They must have made the right moves and now they are reaping their rewards. I am not finished looking. Everyday is a search. Maybe what I would do is to try other avenues, extend my horizons, build new friendships and cherish the old ones. Maybe in my search, I will find something that I love to do. Something I can make money from. And not just search for a job.

Just came from being sick

I just came from being sick with asthma. I was four days in the hospital. It was a severe attack. The night before I asked my mom to buy me Combivent nebules for my asthma. She was even hesitant. Good thing there were two nebules in the fridge. I said I was gonna die of asthma. Then the next day at around lunch time, I couldn't breathe anymore, so I asked to be hospitalized. I said I cannot make through anymore. That day, the whole day, I had difficulty of breathing and it didn't stop even if I was so tired of not being able to breathe. The medicines had no effect anymore. Late that night, I finally slept and so the wheezing stopped. I was afraid to move because it might come back again. The second day, I was still tired from the first day. I had ease of breathing only on the third and fourth day but I wasn't totally healed yet. I had to rest and stop from time to time so that I could pace my breathing. It was very difficult. Now, I am recovering.