Still in search for that moolah

Searching for money is an everyday job. You work some, you eat some, you spend some. My ideas are always to look for a job. Which to my misfortune, doesn't always work. Except maybe if I apply in a call center. I used to have offers before in the call center industry and accounting practice. In sales, I really minimally sold stuff to relatives. I wasn't the saturate the market type of a salesperson. I think big and therefore the details are not thought of by me anymore which I think should be necessary in sales. I have to find somebody whose gonna pay me while I am doing sales. It's just so hard striving to sell something especially walking down the streets when you know that your money is limited. I have the option, the idea to do accounting practice which for sure is gonna have clients but to my detriment, I dislike doing accounting. It wasn't a course for me. Honestly, I am feeling a sense of competition as my nephew is studying the same course in the same school as I studied. Well, it wasn't my choice. And it wasn't his choice either. It was my grandma's and family's choice and my nephew's parents' choice. I somehow think how he is gonna pay later. Well, as for me, I paid for 12 years now. This unemployment thing is something that I couldn't figure out. In the sense that how come all throughout these years nobody wanted to hire me. I guess, it was all about a matter of competition especially for the new grads or the more experienced one. I met once a fellow accounting job aspirant/applicant. She's got many experiences, even took hold of higher positions in accounting but she isn't a CPA. Me, I am a CPA and still nobody would hire me. How's that for a competition. You just couldn't/wouldn't understand things. I have repeatedly applied with this BPO Company which always declined me. And they are always advertising openings, even lots of it in the ads. How come they wouldn't hire me well in fact I know I am capable. It surely is because they were looking at how your resume looks and not how you are qualified or is capable of doing the job. It isn't a question of being able to do the job anymore. It is a question of a well-written, well composed, great content resume. Well, I can say that all through out these years when nobody gave me a chance, I was working hard. I was studying by watching tv and reading books and attending seminars to learn all that I could. I had the blessing to do all those stuffs. What I didn't do is the chance to work or go out to sell because I don't have the allowance to do something for which I don't know if something is gonna return. Sales is something that I haven't yet discovered how it really, really works. All I knew is that I like to buy, I like stuff and that people buy things because they are consumers. I just can't get it when I have to think about sales and then, I just imagine it or myself walking along the dirty, hot, smoky streets of the metropolis, just to do sales. I want to discover how the thought processes of the successful salespeople really go! I wanted to do sales. I wanted to be a marketing professional, all my life. I wanted to commit to this. To be dedicated to this because for me, somebody who knows how to sell wouldn't go hungry, wouldn't be poor, wouldn't be a beggar in the streets. I know I have the talent for it. I just wanted to have all the money I need and want right now before I do some selling on the streets or on the office buildings of my clients/customers. I don't have capital for a business. My family is not entirely rich. To avail of loans, you need a 3 year FS. How can you go first in to a business without money? That's the very reason why you are applying for that loan. Coz you need the money? I hope somebody grants loans because they are just starting a business and no need for a requirement to have collateral or riches under your name in order to avail of that loan. That's ironic. I think it is very difficult. And when nobody trusts in you or had given you a chance, they wouldn't know that you were hungry. My body aches for Millions of Cash. My efforts are exhausting like a Million Pesos. And I get tired at the end of the day, after my day out, and it's worth Million Pesos worth or tiredness...How come others create money as effortlessly like maybe when I read about Bo Sanchez. He's just too cool! Maybe, I am not as inspired as a child anymore. I experience the trouble of living in this life. It is very hard. And somewhere I read that nobody said it would be easy. I know I am all grown up and should be capable of earning the money that I want which is a Gazillion pesos...I hope that God gives me the ideas to be able to make that much of a money. And hope that God answers my prayers to refresh me each time when I feel the tiredness after toiling for work. My efforts for applying for a job is almost exhausted. And I am about to give up! Maybe I have made a mistake, a youthful mistake, that's what I would call it, when I turned down 4 job offers and some informal job offers or business opportunities out there. I know I should be able to change the way I think about these things. But what really matters. We all grow up. We pass through this life and we make mistakes. And we learn from them. God teaches us lessons. Sometimes, I think I have failed God when it comes to Simplicity and Humility and Pride. I know for taking for granted all those opportunities, I have overseen the blessings that God is trying to give me. I am sorry that I wasn't able to give to my family financial support, the mission that I felt God was giving me when I was just starting, a fresh grad. I felt that I have chosen some things that I like, hoping that it would be given to me in this world but apparently, in our country, based on my experience, you don't always get to your dreams. You don't always get a dream job. You have to settle for what's there. What's available to you. What is given to you by God. If I would be doing something that I love to do, I have to pay for it big time. I have to work for it. So hard. So stubbornly. So dedicatedly. I can do alot of things but my money could not afford it. Even this blog wouldn't be possible if not for my sister who is more employable than me, who gave me this laptop or my Uncle who convinced me, invited me to write blogs on the net. Thanks to them. And thanks to my realistic writings on Facebook, I have garnered 3 detractors, how 'bout that? Peace to you, my friends, my worthy opponents. I do not wish to have some enemies in this world. I like a life of Peace. And good relationships until the end of my life. One thing though, I think I am quite of a writer. How come nobody wanted to get me as a freelance writer. Maybe, it's not about talent. It's about tenacity. It's about fulfillment. It's about achievement. I am happy with what I have. But I need money. How about P500000 for a month. I guess, when I have that I'll be contented. Until then, I would have to struggle. So, that is my GOAL now! Ha ha! Goodluck to me.