Cool outings

I cherish the outings that I have with my mom and my aunt. I am trying to rebuild the relationship that I have with my family. Sometimes, you just go to what is important in your life and you don't plan things to happen. You just spend time with them and even though you plan to sometimes just spend time working in the office for let's say 12 hours, you still long for the vacation that you're used to not because of vacation's sake but because you enjoy spending time with your family and take good care of them. My mom is in retiring age and I hope to be with her more but now at the present I am gearing towards working coz I need to have money so I would be spending my offtime with her and spend the rest working. I am not used to that anymore. I am more used to 4 hour work day and spending the rest for leisure time, valuable time to be spent with family minus money. How to go about it. I've been used to this and it was not planned it just happened and I guess in life things are just the way they are. You don't even know why they consistently hesitate to hire you. Nothing's wasted anyway, much so with time. I have done incredible things with the time I had and I don't know if people will understand especially those who have dedicated their lives in working but somehow I am not even proud that I am unemployed, but I am proud of the things that I have achieved in not working for 10-12 years now. It's not a habit but to find yourself relaxing is one of the very important achievements I've had in all those 12 years. If you're gonna work accounting work at a young age while you have other dreams, dreams of becoming an actress or an athlete, it seems not worth it. You have to give in to your passions. Only, I have not achieved my dream for it seems far fetched. Now, I was wondering whether I'd still be an athlete or an actor or maybe study directing and filmmaking. I want to study too writing. All the things you could dream of in your life. I should achieve them. Accounting just went first. And everything just didn't fall into place yet. Is it ever too late? Let me see with the circumstances that I have in my life right now. Am I really for business? I guess, I am for the arts. If only I would try one more time. Just one more time. Plus, I gotta work on my future family plans too. I am getting older, am I? Anyway, money is important and that's why I try to solve it everyday. It is just too hard. God, grant me your will, whatever it is, for as long as I trust in You, You would give to me what is best for me. May I be able to overcome these problems and become a winner!