Some birthday wishes

I just watched a some videos of my friend's child and somehow I am teary eyed because I realized that turning my age on my birthday I still don't have a family of my own. It is one of my wishes to happen to me in I hope the very near future or far future as long as it happens. Iwas sort of lonely and yet expectant that somehow I felt that I deserve also that kind of life. But I am not saying that I am not happy with the way things go for me as of now. I just wish maybe it would be more complete if I have a family of my own anyway I am already at just the right age to have one. Dear Lord, make it happen for me for my heart yearns for it. Show me the way to a fulfilling life. I don't know what it is that you want for me but please make it happen for me the way You see it and the way I also acknowledge it. The problem of money may still be there, but the only difference is right now you have a different, far better approach of handling it and hopefully solving that economic problem you are experiencing. The problems in life are still there but you open up yourself to the things that God wants to happen in your life, too.

I wish i were more religious and attend to more religious activities and befriend some people from the faith to tell me more what to do with my present life and my future, sort of a guide and source of direction. I always wish the having lack of money won't hinder me from the kind of life that I wanted to live. I know there are always solutions to a problem but sometimes I am just tired of doing the same approach to the same problems for maybe the uummppht time and it's just tiresome. You just wish the something different would happen to you this time. You just don't know when it will end or where the change will come. All I know is that everyday is a new day for God and so you have to renew yourself altogether with God as He renews each day for you.

I hope I improve in the way I live. I want to take leadership. I want to take responsibility. I want to grow up more and be more independent and interdependent with people. I want others to trust me especially my mom who is my forever companion in my life. If only God had granted me a job and I willingly accept it would my mom trust me to be on my own and live my life willfully with maybe a partner in life and some kids. I am just gonna let things happen according to how God plans it for me even if it's plan Z for Him.