Where to get the next bread?

I am sort of tired everyday I have to figure out, think up of ways how to earn that money. It seems harder and harder. Even if you go to job fairs or business fairs, you still don't seem to achieve your goals. What I am after is to get the money now, tomorrow, the next day even if it seems little at first. I just want to get working. But really have a hard time doing so. The only thing that I want to start already is to write for money and real estate. Those are the only two things. The rest are just distractions or istorbo. I could think up of a million ideas but you don't know which will hit the jackpot. i am looking for people to work with, to be with, to be friends with and this is like a long term relationship of sorts, a forever relationship. I wish I could do such a thing. I keep on studying and studying is a good thing. You just can manage your time well. You thought with the new things coming your way that you cannot manage your time anymore but you will discover that things adjust and everything is just laid down to you to serve you. I just want to keep on writing, to learn, to express, to experience, to get a book written, for others to read it, to be shared, to let others know. To make yourself known. I think I could be a writer of books. I got to practice. I gotta know. I gotta learn. And then there's the business side of things and so I want to become an agent. I want to become a real estate agent. I just want something to be done without asking permission from somebody else if they are gonna let me work or not like in applying for a job. I am tired already. I want to take this turn or I'll be left out. I know this is the time for me to enter into business that is why I for the first time in my life and I think the last I have promised to myself that I will not experience financial difficulties anymore. Not anymore. This is my turn to do something in business. i gotta earn money. I am 34 turning 35 and I feel that I am in this middle age of discovering myself in business. I am not as young as those who are in their teens or twenties. I am sort of in the middle that's why I called it the middle age but still under the youth group. I gotta work. I am 34. No day has got to pass without me working. I got to stand for my right to work. No ifs, no buts. i just got to work. No day wasted. I am ready to face now my future. Whatever happens. i know it'll be good. God has prepared me hard for this future. And I can feel it. God will give me this wonderful future that He has created for me. I am looking forward to it.