the whys of life

ive consistently ask god what it is he is doing in my life.  i havent had employment all my life in the sense that maybe id apply to more than ten jobs actually in an entire year an d i have been doing it for the past several fifteen years of my life. yes i have rejected about four offers. but that doesnt necessarily mean they are jobs meant for me. two from family connections in government offices which somehow violate my principles in getting a job here in the ph.  two a part time call center offers i want to decline coz for some reason my plans do not work all together for me. itried entrepreneurship but they dont always work well see what ive got jewels from studying entrep.