God's will

I live with my mom. My life revolves in doing stuff for myself and taking care of my mom, spending time with relatives from time to time and doing surfing on the net with some friends. I think it is God's will that I spend my time with my mom for almost 12 years now, since my father died some 8 years ago. I am the moral support of my mom, through thick and thin. I think this is my divine mission. To be with my mom for almost all the time. For some reason, God didn't give me work, at least ones which I wanted so that I can spend time with my mom and support her all the way. There are times too when all the person I can reach for a day is only my mom or some neighbor or a few relatives of ours and that's it. No social life for that entails money allowance for gimmicks and outings. Just a few fellow churchgoers and that's it. I guess that's what you really call God's will. Other people reach out to a lot of people because of their families or their work. It's called God's will. Me, I sort of spend it with my mom alone and that's it. But there will come a time when I have to find somebody to be with, what if my mom dies or leaves me alone? I will have nobody and I don't want to be alone in this world. God give me a mission, please. And change me for the better. For all my misgivings in the past may He give me a new mission and a better self. I would always want to spend time with other people mostly with family and friends. At this time in my life, what I do now are things that matter to me until I am old. I am looking for forever friends. With this new mission from God, I will certainly have a new life, new relationships, new friendships.